You are dissapointed that your boyfriend isn't as perfect as the guys in all the stories you read...

I just realized the other day that I'm not happy with my boyfriend, and the reason is that I keep compairing him to all the stories I've read here...I keep wondering why things aren't as perfect as they "should" be and why he isn't as perfect as he "should" be...I feel really bad about it because I've been ignoring him so I can stay home and just surf through stories on the internet...We only started going out a few weeks ago but I've only seen him 2 times since then...I swear these stories have corrupted me...I feel like such a bad girlfriend...I've always been introverted and kinda anti-social, but I feel even worse about it now because I feel obligated to see him since I'm dating him...I've never actually thought that I would be upset to have a boyfriend...this is so confusing...I like the kid, but I don't want to see him; we like eachother but have nothing in common...where's a shrink when I need one...

So I realized I've never even written in this journal yesterday. I have a journal I carry with me with random thoughts so I decided that they would do fine as entries in here. But instead of spamming pages with 7 entries or so right in a row, they are all just going in one...They're crappy (and strangly have nothing to do with me, normally I write stuff about myself but these are strangely entirely from my imagination) oh well here they are: